Friday, September 7, 2012

In Their Eyes

     I was driving down the road today with only two-year-old Macy with me in the van.  She's my fouth child, my third daughter.  I didn't plan to have a fourth child, but God laid it on my heart to have one more child.  I can't imagine life without her.  We were talking about random things...okay, she was talking about every little thing and I was half listening.  The radio was on and the song "In My Daughter's Eyes" came on.  I started listening and soon realized that Macy's non-stop chatting had stopped.  I looked in the mirror where she sat in her carseat right behind me.  Our eyes met.  She said "Turn it up, Momma.  I like this"  We listened to the song, a tear-jerking story of the relationship of a mother and daughter. I remembered, one more time that day, how very blessed I am.
     I remembered that my actions speak louder than words in the world of my children.  They are always watching me.  It's the reason I try to bite back the angry words when someone cuts me off in traffic, or why I choke back the bitterness when I'm hurt or frustrated.  Why I try to smile at everyone and make an effort to always be polite, even when I don't feel like it.  I have little eyes watching me, and I am their role model in life, at least for now.  I know all about hypocricy, and how clear it is to children.  I'm not going to change the world, but if I can be a positive influence in the eyes of my children, then I have left my legacy.
In My Daughter's Eyes- Martina McBride
In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
  I am strong and wise and I know no fear
  But the truth is plain to see
  She was sent to rescue me
  I see who I wanna be in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
 Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace
 It's miracle God gave to me
Gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe in my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand around my finger
 Oh, it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
 I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough
 It's giving more when you feel like giving up
 I've seen the light
 It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
 A reflection of who I am and what will be
 An' though she'll grow and someday leave, maybe raise a family
 When I'm gone I hope you see how happy she made me